Today... I made a decision.
A decision to bet on me and let go of the rope.
I wrestled for over year.
I waffled, I worried and worked towards one goal.... but it never felt right.
The signs pointed other ways...
people were put in my path, but I stayed the course, I checked every box.
But today.... today I made a decision.
I made THE decision, seemingly out of nowhere.
Just done, decided... next?
I waited for the worry.
I waited for the confusion and the doubt.
But it didn't come.
The lights came on and the world opened up.
The heaviness was gone.
I smiled all night.
I have no idea what comes now, but at least, there is finally a NOW!
I'm here now. Now is great! I am qualified for this now,
I feel more free without the choice.
I feel clear in the haze of not knowing
I am enough, wow I haven't felt that in a long, long time,
all because, I finally made a decision!